What Love is this?

Ketika aku mendengar lagu "what love is this" dari Kari Jobe. Rasanya seperti terbekati sekali. Merasakan kasih Allah itu nyata dan baru setiap hari. Menyakini bahwa Tuhan memang hadir dan setia di sisiku.
Kadang-kadang aku berpikir bagaimana seseorang dapat memilih menjadi Atheis ketika mereka telah melihat hal-hal hebat di luar sana, ketika mereka telah mendengar kabar sukacita yang luarbiasa , ketika mereka menghadapi tantangan dan menyelesaikannya dengan baik. Apakah mereka benar-benar mengira bahwa itu semua kekuatan mereka? Pengetahuan mereka?


Aku, bahkan untuk satu hal yakni cinta yang bisa kurasakan setiap harinya. Itu sudah lebih dari cukup. Cinta mengalahkan segalanya. Kemasyuran, kekayaan, pengetahuan, dan kebaikan-kebaikan yang pernah ada. Cinta adalah satu-satunya sifat yang dapat mengubahkan. Siapakah yang menciptakan cinta yang begitu hebat ini, kalau bukan Tuhan Allah sendiri yang mengaruniakannya. Sebab Tuhan adalah cinta. Jika kamu melihat hal-hal baik terjadi dalam hidupmu, percayalah bahwa Ia memberikan kasihNya padamu. Jika kamu sedang dalam kesedihan, Ia sedang menguji kamu tanpa pernah meninggalkanmu. Silahkan lampiaskan segala perasaanmu padaNya, amarahmu, sedihmu, pertanyaan-pertanyaanmu karena Ia setia. Ialah Tuhan, tempat kita bersandar.

Rain

Kenapa akhir-akhir ini sering hujan?

Tahu tidak, aku percaya bahwa hujan adalah lambang kesedihan.
Bagiku hujan itu mirip tangisan yang jatuh dari langit.
Tangisan alam.

Aku tak begitu suka hujan, jujur saja.
Aku bukan seorang gadis manis seperti dalam cerita yang mecintai hujan.
Hujan membawa kenangan yang menyedihkan, kadang pula penyejuk.
Tapi di hari-hariku lebih sering hujan muncul kala duka.

Saat aku sedang sedih, sesak, dan dalam kegelisahan, hujan selalu turun. Memang terkadang langit mendung saja dan gerimis kecil. Kurasa alam cukup memahami perasaanku.

Sekarang hujan sering turun di Siantar, tempat tinggalku.
Aku bertanya-tanya siapakah gerangan dia yang sedang bersedih itu?
Musim hujan ini, kata bapak.

Baiklah, siapa pun engkau yang bersedih di luar sana, terimakasih karena telah menyebarkan kesejukan ini. Tapi tolong jangan terhanyut lebih lama lagi. Mungkin akan menyebabkan kerugian bagi beberapa orang.

Good news

Hey

I’ve been busy for few days. I got something to do and that something is really really good (I’ll tell you about it later). I just can’t thank God enough for his kindness to me. Hopefully good news will come.

Another news came from my big sister Weny who has just graduated in the beginning of July. She just happened to be Bachelor of Engineering (but has not done her graduation ceremony). This means she is officially became a Bachelor when she finished final exam and completed her undergraduate thesis exam, and the graduation ceremony is just a celebration

Last weeks, she was home and was busy with her journal. But my dad suggested her to apply for job soon although she has not done her graduation ceremony. My dad told that competition is getting tougher and to get a new job is not easy. So she did. But we all knew that job vacancies are not open yet until September. I mean some company such as goverment institution/ ministry or private company usually open on September when all the freshgraduate floded everywhere.

At the end of July, she got invitation for interview in a Japaness construction company. It was about 26 of July. So she booked a ticket and fly to Jakarta the next day. She informed us that she was accepted there as Junior Engineering and begin to work at 12 August (if I am right). We are so happy to receive this news as blessing from God. So, the company offers her a boarding house to stay in Bekasi so she doesn’t have to rent a house. 

Seeing my big sister track record makes me wanna graduate soon and work soon. I think it is a good choice that in her age she made it. I have seen there are alots of freshgraduates out there who just have fun with their lives. Maybe they are not afraid of not getting any job because their parents are very rich. But in family, especially my dad advices, there is no leisure time for fun. We can have fun but also stay focus, if not you will lose. I just hope that God is always with us and bless us.

Catch The Moment

I just opened and found many old writings in Lappy. There are some in my mobile phone.
There is no costant thing. But changed as time passed by.

I try to write some touching story, great experiences, wise lessons while I am facing it.
I want it lasts forever.
I want to keep them safely in head.
But oneday, when I get old and I hardly memorize everything.
I will read my old writings.
Feel it everyday.

For Them Whom I missed Alot (That Time)

“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.”

          Talylor Swift ever said that she is the victim of growing up. Maybe, I am too. I’m 19 now and I just realized it two days ago. It’s quite funny because I was 19 from last February 2014. It’s always like I’m 18. Whoah, it’s been almost a year that we separated (although it’s not a real separation, because I always can see you whenever I want to, hahaha!). But it’s different nowdays because we all are busy in our own bussiness. Even texting each other is something hard to do now. Then if someone  begins to say hello, the others will be mad and say, “why you just texted me just now? Arrogant!” And that’s the way of us to appreciate the greeting which will create ignorant in us. 

          I hate ignorant. Because I don’t want to be ignored. Do you? No right? So, what the hell are you guys doing in your so busy time? Studying? Studying? Or studying? Oh my God, don’t say that you are targetting 4 GPA (yes, I know you are). I want that too -.-“ Do have some fun in your so intensive time! I think you already did that. Because I’ve ever been a part of you guys. I mean, I am still a part of you. It’s just I ever felt the way we studying and playing together. Maybe it’s just me who don’t have some fun. Not because  I have no spare time for this. I do have. But... I don’t have people to hang out with.

          There are so many people here, girls, boys... yeah they are cool enough to accompany me to some nice places. But they are not as cool as you. They are not as cool as us. Not funny as us. We always have something to talk about. Campus, lesson, tecnology, movie, song, motivator, Holy Bible, road, holidays... yeah we always have something to argue with.

          Being together with you is really different with others. I don’t know if this is just my own feeling. Because a half of me is also melancholic person. But if it is just my feeling, then it is your destiny to be friend with me. Because I never ever forget people who ever been closed to me, especially you! I’ve always missed you. We spent good time together in  long terms. So how could I forget all the things we’ve been through?

          We laugh at simple things. We make things funny.

          You guys are so amazing. There’s no others like you. And will never be replaced. You are my best friend for studying and you are my best friend when I am playing. Just so you know, it’s hard to find friend to study and play with. Because some people who want to study are opportunist. They are besides us when they need our help. Or they get close with us because they know we have ‘something’ (read: smart). But if one day we have bad score, they’ll leave us because they think they are greater than us. 

          Some people who want to play are spender. They are very good in spending money. They’ll have lunch in big cafe and restaurants, watch every new movie in cinema, have karaoke after classes, and travel to some places in only one free day (while I will use that time to read my books huhu). The most important is you have to have much money. People like this is totally not my type. I can handle an opportunist, but for spender I get away from them.

          That’s why guys. There’s no one like you. We have a good friendship. We study when we study. We play when we play. Our friendship is healthy. We warn each other if we are going to do wrong things. We support each other. And we pray for each other. Then tell me how can I find someone like you?
I’ll never can. You are such a great friend. 

                                                                   Medan, August 7th 2014

                                                                   Egritha Tampubolon