Saturday, November 19, 2016

Doing right thing

Terhadap orang-orang yang melakukan apa yang benar di hadapan Tuhan, kiranya selalu mengalami kasih Allah yang berkelimpahan dan hidupnya dalam damai sejahtera.



In the beginning of November,
I have made myself conscious
That someone’s gonna grow older.
I knew I had to note it on my schedule.
Because I had many plans to do.
But who are you to be remember?
I am sorry to say, you are not my prioritize.
From the first time, you were not.
I remembered you ever said to me
“Don’t make me your prioritize. Family is no 1. Study is no 2.”
Yes, thanks for your best advice
Until now, family and study are things that I want to focus about.
But, I still remember your day, don’t worry.
I still remember it after I have finished a lot of my tasks.
Tasks are apart of my study which is no. 2 in my life.
So, yes... sadly I said you are not something important in my life.
Remembering you made me feel like it was not me.
Because I have never been so happy for my life like this.
This time and later, I have found myself.
I wanted to remove you from my life.
I really really wanted to but,
I thought again maybe you were sent as a lesson in my life.
So, I let your trail imprints my soul.
To makeme remember about sins.
That it was real.
I hope we can stay as friends.
Ordinary friends. Not more. Not even best friends.
Because I have met best people in my life.
And I know I will meet my best partner in life too.
I pretty sure about this.
So, yeah... that is.
If you feel dissapointed of me, then you can remove me forever in your life.
If you are okay with this, then let us be ordinary friends.
We only need to live each our lives differently.
Busy of our dreams and ambitions.
Talk less because the heavy schedule.
And maybe later... we will finally forget each other.
Yes, let us be ordinary friends which friendship is common.
Which tells us I dont mean to you and you dont mean to me.
Unless you bring opportunity to me and so do I.
In the end, I wish you a very happy life and best luck.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

How to prioritize?

"Egritha, which one should I prioritize: an event that demands just a little of my ability and duty or othet that needs a lot of my ability and duty?" a girl asked me.

"You should prioritize the very very first event that you decide to give all your ability and duty." I said.

There is no small or big duty. All actions need right responsibilty. How could God trust you for "things with bigger responsibility" if you just turned your back away when God let you handle "ordinary things"?
The point is remember whom you are serving for. Don't try to show off but down to earth. This is not about big or small duty. This is about DUTY.

Prioritize what you have taken first. Finish it well. And you can go for another.

NB: Some people who know me think that I am good at prioritize things. But no, I also had hard times, even I cried if I thought I couldn't make it. But one thing that keep me is I know what I am doing and I know whom I am serving.

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

Why do you?

"hey why do you visit my blog?

you come, enter in your address bar

you dont knock. just come like that. scroll down my feeds.

why do you scroll down my feeds?

you read one posting of mine. you are curious. 

you read one more. no. no. not one. but two three or four.

why do you read all my writings?

you think i am unique huh. or my life is quite interesting. or you want to know how ordinary people like me live their life.

yes. yes. why do you critize? 

you feel ridicilous because someone like me have my kind of perpective of things, have principles, have values.

why do you keep reading?


why do you interested in my life?

what brought you here?

link? urgh just press Ctrl +W

why do you read people's writing without even greet them? without even comment any of their writings...

you just read. read and read.

Do you think you are not too selfish? "

Those words blew in a man's head and he knew that he admired the writer. So he started to type,


And the writer had a very nice day.

 That's how comment matters, readers.

Still, I Smile


Stress. Headache.Pressure. 

I got all. I wanna leave all. I mean I WANT TO QUIT. But I JUST can't.
I have integrity and commitment. I have humanity. I care people. I don't want to be opportunist.
I sleep late at night and I have to wake up in early morning.
My mind can't stop thinking, I have alot to share... this stress, this headache, this pressure, this obligation.
Despite of this full activies (thesis writing, Law Christmast event, Economic Law Seminar, Bank of Indonesia events, Coaching time for MDC, Clinic Law, and College), I... still smile everyday.


I still have a reason to smile everyday. Like when I see people smile, I just can't hold myself to not smile back at them. I feel love everyday of my life.

Dad, if you just know. that. your daughter do all these things once in nearly deadline on December! If you know how busy I am to contact mostly official men, meet lecturers (for some events), make proposals, coach delegation of Law Debate until mid night, train MC for Christmas event, discuss events from my scholarship, still catch up some lessons, do exams. And I still have to finish my thesis undergraduate soon. Whal will you say huh?

Arrgh Dad I really wish I can finish this thesis soon. Really. So, I can see the sparkling in your eyes soon. But, I promise. I try hard. This year, I'll finish it. I hope this Egritha can do it and the universe supports me. In 3,2 years of my study, will I get the Bachelor of Law? Oh, the pressure!!

Still, I smile.