How to prioritize?

"Egritha, which one should I prioritize: an event that demands just a little of my ability and duty or othet that needs a lot of my ability and duty?" a girl asked me.

"You should prioritize the very very first event that you decide to give all your ability and duty." I said.

There is no small or big duty. All actions need right responsibilty. How could God trust you for "things with bigger responsibility" if you just turned your back away when God let you handle "ordinary things"?
The point is remember whom you are serving for. Don't try to show off but down to earth. This is not about big or small duty. This is about DUTY.

Prioritize what you have taken first. Finish it well. And you can go for another.


NB: Some people who know me think that I am good at prioritize things. But no, I also had hard times, even I cried if I thought I couldn't make it. But one thing that keep me is I know what I am doing and I know whom I am serving.

Publikasi Resolusi

Ada 2 dampak bagi orang yang suka publikasi resolusi:

1. Orang tersebut akan lebih semangat dan bekerja lebih keras untuk mencapai resolusinya
2. Orang tersebut merasa dia sudah cukup memamerkan mimpi-mimpinya pada orang lain tanpa ada action, malas, dan bersenang-senang dengan hidupnya. 
Saya bukan tipe orang  yang suka menuturkan hal-hal yang akan saya ingin atau akan saya capai di masa depan?

Saya selalu percaya "the future not ours to see" (dari lagu Que Sera Sera). Jadi menceritakan target pada orang lain menurut saya berbahaya. Statemen kita bisa jadi suatu janji yang memang harus ditepati, dan orang-orang menjadi saksinya. Nah, saya gak suka bikin janji kalau gak bisa ditepati. Jadi saya gak akan publikasi resolusi 2016 saya disini, atau menceritakan pada siapapun.

Apakah saya orang yang tertutup?
Saya orang yang terbuka dan sekaligus tertutup. Saya bisa gampang sekali akrab dengan seseorang yang saya percaya dan berbaur dengan semua orang dengan batasan tertentu. Karena resolusi  merupakan goals diri sendiri. Saya kira tak ada manfaatnya dipublikasikan. Apa gunanya bagi orang lain?

Resolusi pribadi seharusnya menjadi renungan bagi diri sendiri sekaligus menjadi pedoman kita untuk melangkah. Seharusnya dibagikan dengan orang yang sangat dekat dengan Anda, misalnya orangtua dan saudara. Resolusi pribadi harusnya diperbincangkan dengan Tuhan. Bukan dengan orang lain.

A girl with ribbon on her hair and books on her table

I remember that once a movie told a story about a boy who wants to be in relationship with  a girl with ribbon on her hair and books on her table.

What does it mean?
I guess the girl must be pretty and smart.

The Man

That was midnight. Around 02:00 am, my body suddenly got itchy.

The more I stretched, the more itching my body became.

My mom was worried and panic.

There was a doctor’s clinic about 500 m from our home.

At that time, we just had one motorcycle, it was broken.

That night I still remembered; I had thought that I would just stay up until morning.

However, that man immediately carried me, put me on his shoulder and took me to the clinic.

It was very dark outside, but I could say this man, with his brave and strength, he would protect me.

He walked 500 m in cold air at a very early morning.

We arrived at the closed clinic.

Bad luck for us and this man seemed to be upset, he thought it was 24-hour clinic.

He brought me back home, made me a hot tea.

I did not remember the end of the story.

But I did notice the man very well.

My life and love.

He is my dad.

The first human who taught to a 6-year-old girl about sacrifice.

What Love is this?

Ketika aku mendengar lagu "what love is this" dari Kari Jobe. Rasanya seperti terbekati sekali. Merasakan kasih Allah itu nyata dan baru setiap hari. Menyakini bahwa Tuhan memang hadir dan setia di sisiku.
Kadang-kadang aku berpikir bagaimana seseorang dapat memilih menjadi Atheis ketika mereka telah melihat hal-hal hebat di luar sana, ketika mereka telah mendengar kabar sukacita yang luarbiasa , ketika mereka menghadapi tantangan dan menyelesaikannya dengan baik. Apakah mereka benar-benar mengira bahwa itu semua kekuatan mereka? Pengetahuan mereka?


Aku, bahkan untuk satu hal yakni cinta yang bisa kurasakan setiap harinya. Itu sudah lebih dari cukup. Cinta mengalahkan segalanya. Kemasyuran, kekayaan, pengetahuan, dan kebaikan-kebaikan yang pernah ada. Cinta adalah satu-satunya sifat yang dapat mengubahkan. Siapakah yang menciptakan cinta yang begitu hebat ini, kalau bukan Tuhan Allah sendiri yang mengaruniakannya. Sebab Tuhan adalah cinta. Jika kamu melihat hal-hal baik terjadi dalam hidupmu, percayalah bahwa Ia memberikan kasihNya padamu. Jika kamu sedang dalam kesedihan, Ia sedang menguji kamu tanpa pernah meninggalkanmu. Silahkan lampiaskan segala perasaanmu padaNya, amarahmu, sedihmu, pertanyaan-pertanyaanmu karena Ia setia. Ialah Tuhan, tempat kita bersandar.

For Them Whom I missed Alot (That Time)

“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.”

          Talylor Swift ever said that she is the victim of growing up. Maybe, I am too. I’m 19 now and I just realized it two days ago. It’s quite funny because I was 19 from last February 2014. It’s always like I’m 18. Whoah, it’s been almost a year that we separated (although it’s not a real separation, because I always can see you whenever I want to, hahaha!). But it’s different nowdays because we all are busy in our own bussiness. Even texting each other is something hard to do now. Then if someone  begins to say hello, the others will be mad and say, “why you just texted me just now? Arrogant!” And that’s the way of us to appreciate the greeting which will create ignorant in us. 

          I hate ignorant. Because I don’t want to be ignored. Do you? No right? So, what the hell are you guys doing in your so busy time? Studying? Studying? Or studying? Oh my God, don’t say that you are targetting 4 GPA (yes, I know you are). I want that too -.-“ Do have some fun in your so intensive time! I think you already did that. Because I’ve ever been a part of you guys. I mean, I am still a part of you. It’s just I ever felt the way we studying and playing together. Maybe it’s just me who don’t have some fun. Not because  I have no spare time for this. I do have. But... I don’t have people to hang out with.

          There are so many people here, girls, boys... yeah they are cool enough to accompany me to some nice places. But they are not as cool as you. They are not as cool as us. Not funny as us. We always have something to talk about. Campus, lesson, tecnology, movie, song, motivator, Holy Bible, road, holidays... yeah we always have something to argue with.

          Being together with you is really different with others. I don’t know if this is just my own feeling. Because a half of me is also melancholic person. But if it is just my feeling, then it is your destiny to be friend with me. Because I never ever forget people who ever been closed to me, especially you! I’ve always missed you. We spent good time together in  long terms. So how could I forget all the things we’ve been through?

          We laugh at simple things. We make things funny.

          You guys are so amazing. There’s no others like you. And will never be replaced. You are my best friend for studying and you are my best friend when I am playing. Just so you know, it’s hard to find friend to study and play with. Because some people who want to study are opportunist. They are besides us when they need our help. Or they get close with us because they know we have ‘something’ (read: smart). But if one day we have bad score, they’ll leave us because they think they are greater than us. 

          Some people who want to play are spender. They are very good in spending money. They’ll have lunch in big cafe and restaurants, watch every new movie in cinema, have karaoke after classes, and travel to some places in only one free day (while I will use that time to read my books huhu). The most important is you have to have much money. People like this is totally not my type. I can handle an opportunist, but for spender I get away from them.

          That’s why guys. There’s no one like you. We have a good friendship. We study when we study. We play when we play. Our friendship is healthy. We warn each other if we are going to do wrong things. We support each other. And we pray for each other. Then tell me how can I find someone like you?
I’ll never can. You are such a great friend. 

                                                                   Medan, August 7th 2014

                                                                   Egritha Tampubolon

Worth Experience

Jadi, saya menemukan tulisan lama (tahun 2014 akhir) yang belum sempat diposting. Udah lewat banget sih, karena udah ada banyak kejadian-kejadian hebat setelah itu. Bagaimanapun, pengalaman adalah harga yang gak bisa dibayar, lalu saya putuskan untuk diposting saja. 

Halo- halo!

Kali ini saya mau ceritakan soal pengalaman saya lomba debat nasional di Unibraw, Malang bulan September lalu. Jadi saya berkesempatan menjadi delegasi USU untuk lomba debat hukum nasional melalui seleksi di Fakultas bersama 2 orang teman dari stambuk 2012 (k’ester dan b’anggi). 

Kita punya waktu sebulan untuk persiapan mosi sebanyak 11 waktu itu. Selama persiapan, luar bias capeknya. Capeknya lebih karena banyak pikiran (waktu itu jadwal mata kuliah saya bentrok hiks hik. Sampai sekarang juga.), aktivitasnya lanjut terus padahal badan minta rest bentar, dan otak yang terkuras dari pagi sampai midnight.

Ogah banget kalo ingat proses persiapan debat itu. Dan ogah untuk mengulanginya lagi dari awal. Rasanya capek banget. Pagi jam 7.30- jam 17.00 kuliah, pulang kuliah, langsung ke kost, makan, mandi, langsung berangkat lagi ke kost senior buat belajar sampai midnight. Diskusi debatnya kadang sampai jam 1 pagi, jam 3, bahkan sama coach tertentu bisa gak tidur. Alias memang 24 jam stay awake! Ngantuk banget aslinya. Badan udah lemas banget, kantung mata bertambah, di kelas gak perhatiin dosen (wong saya tidur), masuk angin, dsb. Saya dan teman-teman satu tim juga enggak coffee consumer. Jadi kami jarang banget minum kopi tengah malam supaya melek. Bahkan saya hanya sekali aja minum kopi dalam sebulan itu. Saya gak suka kopi soalnya. Loh kok bisa tahan sih begadang?  Saya sih sebenarnya bukan tipe orang yang kebal begadang kalo gak tidur siang. Jadi kami main cubit-cubitan deh supaya tetap melek matanya. Gila ya...

Akhirnya pas hari H...

Kita berangkat ke ke Jakarta dari Medan jam 7 pagi. Tapi dari jam 3 pagi udah di Kuala Namu. Kita sempatkan latihan malam sebelum berangkat, bahkan di bandara pun disuruh oral sama coach supaya mentalnya terlatih. Alhasil kita berangkat dengan keadaan tepar. Di pesawat niatnya pengen belajar lagi tapi semua pada ngorok. Sampai di Jakarta, kita langsung ketemu sama bapaknya k’ester (k’ester tinggal tangerang) yang udah bawain kita makanan. So thankful bisa kenyang juga berkat ortu k’ester. Jam 4 kita udah cau lagi dari Jakarta ke Malang. Sampenya di Malang jam 5. Abis itu kita makan di bandara sambil nungguin seksi Trankoper Unibraw jemput kita. Yang jemput si BB pake avanza. Di mobil, b’anggi dan si BB yang cerita banyak. Saya dan k’ ester udah diam elegan.

Jadi singkat cerita, kami tetap bahas mosi gitu sampe di penginapan, di Griya UB waktu itu. Pas hari H debat dikasih tau kalo jumlah tim debat ada 25 dari 17 universitas di Indonesia. Babak penyisihan hanya 6 tim yang diambil. Kita lolos sampai babak penyisihan sama tim dari Unpad, Unair, Undip, UNS, Uin Sunan Kalijati (kalo gak salah). Kita lanjut ke semifinal lawan Unpad dan UNS. 

And the result is... Undip got the 1st, UNS got the 2nd, dan Unpad had the 3rd position. Perjuangan kita hanya sampai di semifinal. Sedih sih. Banget malah. Pengen nangis... uuuu... Akhirnya kita nangis bertiga di bawah shower. Bercanda!

Memang pasti sedih banget karena kita jauh-jauh dari Medan ke Malang. Ternyata di final pun ada tim yang rasanya kurang cocok untuk tampil sebagai finalis. Intinya, dalam lomba apapun pasti ada faktor keberuntungan. Kalo memang sudah rejeki yah menang. Kalo enggak, coba lagi.

Gimanapun, kita tetap bersyukur udah sampe semifinal karena gak semua orang juga sampe semifinal, bahkan yang udah bawa-bawa dosen segala masih ada yang kalah di babak penyisihan. Sementara kita yang tampak gembel dan alone masih dikasih kesempatan.

Saya harus bilang bahwa rekan-rekan saya setim adalah orang yang hebat dengan kemampuan retorika yang wow. Kita gak kalah kok dari tim-tim yang lain. Yang mau kita capai di kompetisi ini bukan sekedar piala dan uang. Tapi juga kerjasama tim yang baik, emosional yang terkendali, sikap pengertian dan saling menghargai, kedisiplinan, dan banyak lagi. Yang ingin kami raih bukan kemenangan lomba semata. Tapi juga kepribadian yang terlatih dan baik yang menjadikan kami pemenang di setiap kesempatan.

Apa yang saya alami, dapatkan dan pelajari lebih dari apa yang saya tulis di blog ini. Saya belajar banyak hal. Wawasan dan pengalaman pun ikut bertambah. Bagaimanapun bersyukur untuk semuanya yang saya lalui, terutama untuk kondisi yang sehat. Di lain kesempatan saya akan berusaha lebih keras.

Don't respond evil with evil

“Don’t respond evil with evil”

This is a crazy thing to do, I think. Isn’t it hard to hold?

One treatment should have got the same treatment. Examples, a person smiles at you and you smile back. Your bestfriend gave you a present on your birthday and you alaso did the same. You helped an old man to across the street and next days, he helped you to find your relatives in a village. In other word, kindness respond with kindness.

Why kindness can be responded with kindness? Why we don’t to the same to evil?

If someone hit you, will you help him with his homework later? No, you wanted to slap him.

If a girl broke your heart, will you care about her grandfather’s death? No, you wished her to be sad whole time and missed you.

If your teacher cursed about your future, will you greet her if you meet her at mall oneday? No, you cursed her to get bad luck.

I know we always want to return other’s treatment to themselves. Even if it is evil and harm. But that’s absolutely wrong. If you respond evil with evil than you are as worthless as that person (who did evil to you). If we knew and realized when someone did wrong to us, then don’t do wrong to him. Because If we do wrong, then we create “ two wrongs” (evils). And you made more sins. You were succeed to raise his anger, and he believed that you are bad also just like him.

So, whoever you are, wherever you are, and what problems you are facing... Don’t respond evil with evil.

Respond evil with kindness. Spread love. Share joy. And be patient and joyful.

By doing this, you are succeed to beat yourself and everything. My favorite figure, Jesus Christ taught me about this. He used to did this when he is treated wrong by people. I know it’s hard, for me too. ButI try. I believe this thing is right. And I want to do this right thing in my life

There Is Someone

There is someone

Who always lives in jealousy, egoism, and arrogancy

All of that master herself

Sometimes she is being nice and warm

But more often being rude

Her face shows cruelty

She is having trouble associating with many people

Hated by his friends

Hurt other people

Curse others

There's someone who is rude anyway

But within himself, he feels himself

He is just thirsty of affection

His love more than anything

His pity exceed aversion

Could not describe further

He is very complicated

Sentimental

There is someone

Who lives in a neutral position

Do not know what is he desired

Confused must be an evil or a good one

Confused to choose good or bad act

Pleasing others are his want

But firstly please himself

He had saved people without knowing it

There is someone

Very plain

Looks like she could determine which one is wrong and which is right

But she does not do it

She is afraid of hurting people

She wants peace

There is someone ...

Created by God

His manner was odd

Did God create the characters inherent in him?

Tonight's dreaming

Tonight again I am thinking...

dreaming about what I really want in life.

I want to graduate quickly.

Continue a master or a doctoral degree.

Work in a multinational company.

Earn much money.

Very much money.

I will have a big house...

With a large swimming pool maybe.

So I can swim in the morning before I go to work.

I will have a good and smart husband.

A son and a daughter will complete it.

Have vacation in some great places with my parents.

Do contribution for orphanages and churches.

Have fun...

Happy life...

Perfect dream...

What a dream...

I will live in a luxurious life.

Get anything I want easily.

Fulfil anyone's wishes in a second.

I will give my brother anything.

Let my sisters get what they want.

By my money!

It is okay. If they use my money.

I will work twice or trice harder than before.

Then get alot of money. 

A lot lot lot lot of money...

For a happy life, for sure.

For sure...

For sure...?

Really, is this what I want?

I am not sure now.

Will I be happy in this kind of happy life?

I don't even now why people tell this happiness.

While I am thinking about this, tonight...

I just feel emptiness.

Hollowness.

Nothing more.

And I again force myself.

Search for the happiness part.

I try to imagine my parents smile. People smile.

Are they really happy?

Now I am asking if I can make them happy.

I realize that I have make some untrue illusion.

Just to find a reason that what I thought I want is right.

But that's a lie.

That's a lie, so I can receive this kind of happy life.

The truth is I am not happy.

Or I dont know if my parents are happy or not.

I just forced myself...

To think that wealth, greatness, and reputation is everything I need.

No I don't want a life like that.

Gathering with my family in healthy condition is a wonderful thing.

Seeing my brother and sister get achievement in their field is a pleasant.

I am happy now. 

Live my daily life is more than a happiness.

Achievements, wealth, reputation, everyone's wants it.

But not one of those can make sure you are happy.

And I...

Yes I want to reach those.

But not for my happiness or people's.

Only for God's glory.

So, what is exactly I really want in life?

Love...

I just need love.

Because love is bigger than anyhing.

And love never fails.

And will I be happy?

I am always grateful for small mercy.

I am grateful for my life.

Decision: Pick up what you like most!

I 'm sure you 'd rather pick your options than prescribed by others . But , believe me selecting it is not easy . If you are faced with option A and option B.

A : An old saloon car given by your lovely parents. This is a car they bought after retiring , which 15 years ago you  really wanted.

B : A new car Mazda - Metro XVI gifted by your company that you achieve for your hardwork. This is a dream car of your family (husband/wife/children).

            If you are required to choose one of the options A or B , which one do you choose ?
Choosing either A or B is good , it depends on the value you put on your choice. In other words , it depends on your tastes (which one you like ) .

            Thus something happened to me, you can not judge me based on the option I took. Because who will live in it is myself. I must have been thinking about it carefully, so I decided . Opportunity from an option which is not taken when I selected the other option will be gone , but will never be useless. Let the opportunity gone for something better!

Fighting,

Egritha