Doing right thing

Terhadap orang-orang yang melakukan apa yang benar di hadapan Tuhan, kiranya selalu mengalami kasih Allah yang berkelimpahan dan hidupnya dalam damai sejahtera.

November

At the beginning of November,

I had made myself conscious

That someones gonna grow older.

I knew remarked it on my schedule.

I had many plans to do.

But who are you to be remembered?

Sorry, you are not my priority.

From the first time, you were not.

I remembered you ever told me.

“Don’t make me your priority. Family is No 1. Study is No 2.”

Thanks for your best advice

Until now, family and study are two things I want to focus on.

But, I still remembered your day, don’t worry.

I still remembered it after I had finished a lot of my tasks.

Remembering you made me felt like it was not me.

Because I have never been so happy in my life like this.

This time and later, I've found myself.

I wanted to wash you away.

I really really wanted to.

I thought again maybe you gave some color to my life.

So, I let your trail imprint on my soul.

To make me remember about moments.

That it was real.

I hope we can stay as friends.

Not more. Not even best friends.

Because I've met the best people in my life.

I know I will meet my best partner in life. I know you will too.

I'm pretty sure about this.

So, yeah... that is.

If you are dejected because of me, then you can remove me forever in your life.

If you are okay with this, then let us be ordinary friends.

We only need to live each of our lives differently.

Busy of our dreams and ambitions.

Talk less because of the heavy schedule.

And maybe later...
We will finally forget each other.

Yes, let's just be friends.
A very ordinary friend in which I don't mean to you and you don't mean to me.

Unless you bring me some advantage me and so do I.

In the end, I wish you a very happy life and the best of luck.

How to prioritize?

"Egritha, which one should I prioritize: an event that demands just a little of my ability and duty or othet that needs a lot of my ability and duty?" a girl asked me.

"You should prioritize the very very first event that you decide to give all your ability and duty." I said.

There is no small or big duty. All actions need right responsibilty. How could God trust you for "things with bigger responsibility" if you just turned your back away when God let you handle "ordinary things"?
The point is remember whom you are serving for. Don't try to show off but down to earth. This is not about big or small duty. This is about DUTY.

Prioritize what you have taken first. Finish it well. And you can go for another.


NB: Some people who know me think that I am good at prioritize things. But no, I also had hard times, even I cried if I thought I couldn't make it. But one thing that keep me is I know what I am doing and I know whom I am serving.

Still, I Smile

@#$%^&*()

Stress. Headache.Pressure. 

I got all. I wanna leave all. I mean I WANT TO QUIT. But I JUST can't.
I have integrity and commitment. I have humanity. I care people. I don't want to be opportunist.
I sleep late at night and I have to wake up in early morning.
My mind can't stop thinking, I have alot to share... this stress, this headache, this pressure, this obligation.
Despite of this full activies (thesis writing, Law Christmast event, Economic Law Seminar, Bank of Indonesia events, Coaching time for MDC, Clinic Law, and College), I... still smile everyday.

YES!

I still have a reason to smile everyday. Like when I see people smile, I just can't hold myself to not smile back at them. I feel love everyday of my life.

Dad, if you just know. that. your daughter do all these things once in nearly deadline on December! If you know how busy I am to contact mostly official men, meet lecturers (for some events), make proposals, coach delegation of Law Debate until mid night, train MC for Christmas event, discuss events from my scholarship, still catch up some lessons, do exams. And I still have to finish my thesis undergraduate soon. Whal will you say huh?

Arrgh Dad I really wish I can finish this thesis soon. Really. So, I can see the sparkling in your eyes soon. But, I promise. I try hard. This year, I'll finish it. I hope this Egritha can do it and the universe supports me. In 3,2 years of my study, will I get the Bachelor of Law? Oh, the pressure!!

Still, I smile.

time

Ternyata benar, semakin tinggi usia seseorang, maka semakin dewasa orang itu.
Orang yang sehat jasmani dan rohani nya akan semakin bijaksana dalam bersikap.
Aku mengatakan ini karena aku melihat diriku sendiri dan orang-orang disekitarku.
Mengherankan, aku bisa tiba-tiba melakukan sesuatu yang membosankan dan memakan waktu lama .
Dulu aku membenci hal itu. Sekarang dengan sabar kulakukan. Kapan lagi akan kulakukan, pikirku.

Usia telah membuka mata kita, untuk menyadari bahwa 365 hari ternyata singkat.
Momen apa sih yang sudah memberikanmu rasa bahagia dan sakit. Pelajaran apa sih yang udah kamu dapat dalam setahun. Dan progres apa yang udah kamu lakukan untuk membuatmu menjadi orang.

Ketika menyadari waktu yang cepat berlalu, aku ingin hidup seperti aku tidak akan hidup besok.
Aku ingin melakukan banyak hal untuk menyenangkan orang.
Aku ingin membuat banyak orang lebih bahagia dan bersyukur untuk kehadiranku.
Aku ingin memasak, membaca, berdiskusi, menonton, bercerita tentang masa depan dengan orang-orang yang ku sayang. Aku ingin memiliki hari-hari yang berharga. Sehingga saat tiba masa sulit, aku bisa mengingatkan diriku bahwa aku punya kenangan yang indah.

Selamat ulang tahun ke 21 untuk diriku.